I entertain myself and, quite unknowingly, others. Downplaying (or ignorant to) the impact of change by looking at my world through two zip codes and nothing more. Failing more often than not, but living in immense hope.
Let him go. If he loved you he would never have treated you the way he did. You are better than this. There are better things in the world than him. Every time the past haunts you with its comforting familiarity, keep in mind how brutally he broke your heart and didn't even blink twice. And keep in mind that you are a stronger woman as a result.